Before I left Bristol my plan was to use the free time that was an inevitable result of having no friends in London to write. I haven’t really kept that plan, similar to the plan where I was going to stop smoking roll ups and start running round the park. It’s not like I’ve made plans to start a crusade or learn to speak Yiddish. It’s not even like I’m learning to do something new, I’ve got fingers, they work, I’ve got a laptop (the fact that this post is being written is proof that my laptop is also functional.) 

It’s easy to think that I’m fooling myself into doubting my ability to do something when in all likelihood… I’m just lazy or worried that I will never be as good as I want.

I’ve nearly finished at Company now. three more days and then on to ASOS magazine. I’ve found it difficult at times, rewarding at some points and educational - however probably not as much as I had hoped. I probably haven’t done myself any favours by for some reason letting myself be downcast from time to time.

I have learnt that there might be some people who don’t always have time or inclination to get to know you and so it is up to you to be that little bit more vocal, make less mistakes and ask less annoying questions. I don’t think I’ve done a fantastic job and I can’t imagine that I have done myself much credit. Three days left to make an impression, lets hope it’s a good one.

So it’s my last day at Closer Magazine tomorrow and it has been such an interesting experience! I got off to a bit of a shakey start, moving from Bristol to London, I was pretty hung over from the weekend and tired on the Monday. I managed to get lost on the short walk from Tottenham Court Road to the building and when I got here I felt like I had made the biggest mistake of my life.

Luckily I guess I was just tired and the last two weeks have been invaluable experience, I’ve done everything from making tea to writing for the Showbiz Gossip section of the website.

I’ve even been asked to cover the editorial assistant when she takes holiday this month…PAID!! *gasp!! Not that I can do it however as I am already on to Company Magazine at that point.

I’ve also mangaged to make a firm friend in fellow intern Kate who is amazing and made me feel so much happier about giving everything up to come to London and follow my dream!